It isnít so much loneliness that gets to me, you know? I think we all handle loneliness differently, and there are varying degrees. What really gets to me is when Iíve realized loneliness doesnít get to me. I walk around everyday alone and I donít feel alone. It seems like a positive thing but it really isnít. I donít mean I feel spiritually fulfilled, like God is following me around or something. I mean, I feel like there is no separation in my loneliness from my life. What do you do when that happens? I have come to the point where I donít know what to do.

There was a time that I think things could have been different. There were some moments were I felt normal, that where I was going was normal, and that there was a solid and unquestionable path ahead of me. Sometimes I still feel that way, but now I am not so sure.

It scares me to death.

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